I feel so bad

I am a smoker, and have been for a good few years. When I started minding, I stopped during the day and just had a wake up fag and about 3 at night, and still do. My problem is, today at 1.00 I felt the urge to have a chill out fag. I was minding a little one, but she had just dropped off, and I never smoke at all in the day, but I did and mum came early to pick up and caught me...
She laughed about it and that was it, so i mumbled a sorry and got little one ready and when they had gone, burst into tears and text her that I was really sorry, would understand if she terminated, and so on, and she text me back saying i was lovely and she knew i wouldnt do it in front of the little one and she was really nice....But i feel so awful i cant stop crying, i feel like i have let her down and all my children, and myself, but i have tried so many times to stop , and now i really feel i have to, has anyone else been in this situation, because at the moment i could do with advice.
IM SORRY TO DRONE ON, BUT I FEEL SO SO BAD...............:panic: :(

I think you have done really well to cut down to just 4 a day.

The question do you want to give up?

I don't smoke so am not an expert but I would suggest cutting down once more and maybe still have your morning one (I know my mum is horrendous in the morning without hers) and maybe 2 in the evening.

Do this for a month then cut down again.

Hi curly, i have sent off for a quit pack and im determined to do it this time, i would hate to lose a mindee because of my stupid habit, thanks for the support :)

I quit smoking 5 years ago.

Doctors said i had 6 years left if i continued to smoke :eek:

I used the nicorette patches. :clapping:

It was really hard and i had 2 episodes of hysterics with my OH. :eek:
I found that removing everything associated with smoking from the house helped, i.e. ash trays, lighters.

Morning were the worst. I always got up had a cuppa and a smoke. So because of this i didnt have a cuppa in the morning for about 6 month.

It is all about completely changing your routine in the mornings

Im not going to say that it is easy to do but it is very worthwhile.

I wouldnt be here if i hadent quit and im only 36 :eek:

Good luck :thumbsup:

Good for you!

Think of all the money you will save :D

Hey Hayley, that is a story to make give up, good on you, that was harsh advice off your doctor, but i think i will take your story as my own, because my doc could say that to me one day soon. thanks for that and WELL DONE xx

Hey Katie,

Don't be too hard on yourself! Everyone makes a mistake now and then. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise as it may be the real incentive you need to finally quit :)