I started childminding on Monday - the day wasnt' too bad, a bit stressful at times but the kids are nice and relaxed.

Tuesday & Weds great

Today stressful with my son and the other elder child fratching.

I know it sounds silly but I am not sure if this is for me,

The elder child I have taken on acts strangely - I don't mean that nasty but he shouts screams, runs around like he's crazy etc etc. and is being assessed at school.

I feel some kind of chain round my neck if you know what I mean. Although the kids are lovely it's like I feel kind of restricted & not as relaxed as I was when there was just the three of us.

I also feel like a guilty bad parent, like I am neglecting my 19 month old son, although I am not.

Is it normal to feel like this, I am also so tired and having to go to bed at 10, boring but have to be up early.

Used to that but not to being so organised.

Did anyone else feel like this??

Sorry to moan I'm just not sure.