I'm finding these holidays really difficult. People keep saying how I must be loving the holidays but for me they're dragging and I'm wishing for September. It's making me feel really sad because I want to enjoy it.

I have 3 under 5s and 3 school children every day, so I have to walk everywhere, and I just find it too hard to go to parks because I don't want to risk losing any of them. I am friends with other childminders but I don't feel like I can meet them at parks because it's still my responsibility to watch my children, so I'd still be responsible for all 6 PLUS I'd then feel rude for being unsociable and not talking much. For the same reason I haven't really met up with any friends.

I just feel like every day we stay home and they play in the garden and they're really happy.

But I'm bored and I feel like I'm not giving them the experiences I should be.

Does anyone else feel like this, or have any tips for getting me out of my rut?