sorry to go on about the subject but at least i get an honest answer on here, i was thinking about writing this to mum.
baby is asleep at the moment, he had a nice morning at the under 3s club, apart from when i drank my tea he was winging, as i put him in an activity play ring.
But what i was going to say about the subject of his winging (cant call it crying as he has no tears and is not distressed at all) was that the reason could be that he gets picked up as soon as he makes that noise, and that’s all it is, is just saying pick me up. I can understand as he is your first baby and you want to hold him and also you work and probably do feel guilty. But i feel for my sanity too that it maybe beneficial to leave him to winge, so that hes not getting what he wants, as this will only prolong him doing this, and im honestly not sure i can carry on caring for him as much as i love him, as i find as he does it continuously it is starting to affect my family and the children i care for, I think as he seems to be getting more attention than normal and is making himself "known" is getting to Ross as hes getting worse with hi s wetting himself, and child 1 also gets upset by it.
I know baby is his own little person and he can be so lovely and cute when hes happy (attached to me) i wouldnt mind the occasional winging but when it is all day long it can be tiring. All i can think of is the peace i used to have before taking him on, and as i have never experienced a baby that winges so much as baby , i feel i want to leave him to winge and sometimes in another room, which is not like me to want to do this as i am a very caring person and thats why i want to childmind, i want my house to be a happy, relaxing environment where children can play and join in to activities, without hearing wahhgggghhh! in the background.
I really wonder what one of my parents thinks as one of the little boys cry when i collect him and runs away, as before he would be waiting with a big grin on his face when i come to see him, now he just looks so worried when he sees the baby.
As you can understand its totally unrealistic for me to hold him all day long, now that hes nearly one - i feel he should be exploring and having fun. Also i have 3 boys of my own that need my attention too. I need to be as honest as possible with you so we both know where we stand, i have always felt that baby is more suited to someone who has no children that can hold him all day long and can give him the undivided attention he craves. I also feel that when you take on a child they have to suit your own lifestyle, mine as you know is busy and hectic, as i love going out and about and doing activities with the kids. I just find baby hasn’t yet fitted into my lifestyle and after 5 months i would have hoped he would have.
We really need to come to a plan to how we can manage this winging, i feel that some type of controlled winging maybe the way forward, but we both need to do the same thing so he doesn’t get confused. Otherwise i will have to decide if he doesn’t get any better after Christmas when hopefully he will be walking, then i may have to terminate the contract.
It would be with great regret, as you are all such a lovely family and your also like a friend to me. But i have tried so many things with him, and i just feel that i have personally had enough of the constant winging and would like my house to be the happy house it once was.
Thank for reading for all those that got to the end without getting bored.. what do you think??? too much to the point??
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