Sissy
13-02-2012, 09:39 PM
Sorry this is just a rant.
I had a dream to become a childminder and I fought for it, it was not easy to get registered specially seeing people around me working cash in hand and not having 0.1% of preocupations, responsabilities, profissionalism and hard work/paper work we have to put up with....(and I also have the feeling that parents are much more exigent with registered CMs than the other 'types'...anyway...I am really thinking about giving up and change my career and here are the reasons:
* I have a very naughty, hard work 4 year old and being a CM is not making our relationship any easier even though she loves have the mindees around and have no problems in sharing, but she takes advantage when I am busy working to be naughty and wind me up...sometimes after school she wants her own space and do her own thing which is difficult as mindees love her and won't leave her alone...how does people with more than 1 child manage, I must be a very crap mum or CM...I am always stressed now a days and specially from today as it is f***half term.
*I live in a small flat which is ok to work in when hubby is not at home, but when he is in (he works shifts) he locks himself in the bedroom until 6 when house is free...he is becoming unsuportive because of all the noise and lack of privacy plus my stress towards DD.
* I use my sitting room and DD's bedroom to work but I can see that as she gets older she will need her own space to relax after school and do homework whitout small children and baby's toys around....
* I am fed up of changing nappies
* I am fed up of pushing prams
* I am getting resentful to be constant cleaning and tyding up after mindees all the time, they are 1.5. I love them but sometimes I think to myself: I have been through this phase already with DD, why on earth Am I doing it again??
* I don't want to do potty training.
* I really don't think I will click with new mindees and families when these ones leave me.
I am thinking of becoming full time student from OU from september, Social Care, my aim is to work with orphans and homeless people, if I don't take the risk and do it now I don't know when I will ever gonna do it, I am turning 35 this year, maybe I am in crisis.
Not sure how finances will be if I become full tiem student though, DH's salary is not huge and we pay rent in London but I can't go on being unhappy like this.
Ranting is over, thanks for listening.:(
And I am not even from this country so my english isn't great, sorry the post is not very well written:blush:
I had a dream to become a childminder and I fought for it, it was not easy to get registered specially seeing people around me working cash in hand and not having 0.1% of preocupations, responsabilities, profissionalism and hard work/paper work we have to put up with....(and I also have the feeling that parents are much more exigent with registered CMs than the other 'types'...anyway...I am really thinking about giving up and change my career and here are the reasons:
* I have a very naughty, hard work 4 year old and being a CM is not making our relationship any easier even though she loves have the mindees around and have no problems in sharing, but she takes advantage when I am busy working to be naughty and wind me up...sometimes after school she wants her own space and do her own thing which is difficult as mindees love her and won't leave her alone...how does people with more than 1 child manage, I must be a very crap mum or CM...I am always stressed now a days and specially from today as it is f***half term.
*I live in a small flat which is ok to work in when hubby is not at home, but when he is in (he works shifts) he locks himself in the bedroom until 6 when house is free...he is becoming unsuportive because of all the noise and lack of privacy plus my stress towards DD.
* I use my sitting room and DD's bedroom to work but I can see that as she gets older she will need her own space to relax after school and do homework whitout small children and baby's toys around....
* I am fed up of changing nappies
* I am fed up of pushing prams
* I am getting resentful to be constant cleaning and tyding up after mindees all the time, they are 1.5. I love them but sometimes I think to myself: I have been through this phase already with DD, why on earth Am I doing it again??
* I don't want to do potty training.
* I really don't think I will click with new mindees and families when these ones leave me.
I am thinking of becoming full time student from OU from september, Social Care, my aim is to work with orphans and homeless people, if I don't take the risk and do it now I don't know when I will ever gonna do it, I am turning 35 this year, maybe I am in crisis.
Not sure how finances will be if I become full tiem student though, DH's salary is not huge and we pay rent in London but I can't go on being unhappy like this.
Ranting is over, thanks for listening.:(
And I am not even from this country so my english isn't great, sorry the post is not very well written:blush: