Tealady
16-08-2010, 11:19 PM
... or do I really not want to do this job anymore?
I haven't had much business this last year or so, some my choice as I had a baby last October and no potential full-timers wanting me because I was pregnant and worried I might change my mind about returning to work as promised.
Anyway, I was down to 2 schoolies, one before school only and one after school only, term time only too with nothing on the horizon as enquiries had been non-existant.
I am now down to just my breakfast boy as the after school girl left to go to another minder as my setting was too quiet apparantly. Although I wasn't bothered in one way as the parents really made use of the fact that as their DD was my only mindee I could be more flexible :angry: I was put out as I had been very accomodating and felt their DD was happy here.
Last week the phone rang and I had an enquiry for a baby two days a week. My initial reaction was yay! at last :clapping:. However, that feeling has passed :( .
When I had my full-timer before I loved my job, but now I'm dreading the thought of working with another family, that If I get the contract I won't somehow measure up.
Half of me want's to cancel the appointment and have a think, but part of me is looking forward to the possibility of expanding my numbers. If I do get the contract I don't want to start it then terminate as my heart isn't in it. I feel my confidence has been knocked and as and I'm quiet, I've gotten out of the swing of things (especially with EYFS). Can I get my Mojo back or should I call it a day?
I haven't had much business this last year or so, some my choice as I had a baby last October and no potential full-timers wanting me because I was pregnant and worried I might change my mind about returning to work as promised.
Anyway, I was down to 2 schoolies, one before school only and one after school only, term time only too with nothing on the horizon as enquiries had been non-existant.
I am now down to just my breakfast boy as the after school girl left to go to another minder as my setting was too quiet apparantly. Although I wasn't bothered in one way as the parents really made use of the fact that as their DD was my only mindee I could be more flexible :angry: I was put out as I had been very accomodating and felt their DD was happy here.
Last week the phone rang and I had an enquiry for a baby two days a week. My initial reaction was yay! at last :clapping:. However, that feeling has passed :( .
When I had my full-timer before I loved my job, but now I'm dreading the thought of working with another family, that If I get the contract I won't somehow measure up.
Half of me want's to cancel the appointment and have a think, but part of me is looking forward to the possibility of expanding my numbers. If I do get the contract I don't want to start it then terminate as my heart isn't in it. I feel my confidence has been knocked and as and I'm quiet, I've gotten out of the swing of things (especially with EYFS). Can I get my Mojo back or should I call it a day?