keohane1
21-06-2015, 03:53 AM
Well I never thought that giving up childminding was going to be so sad.
For months now I have been thinking about calling it a day simply because I am obsessed with it and have let it rule my life. 3.5 years ago I started childmind, I was so excited and threw myself straight in doing my level 3 in 6 months, re-arranging my paperwork 101 times until I got it just how I wanted it, spending a fortune on furniture and toys until I got my toy room just how I wanted it but even now ime still obsessed with making it better even though it's perfect.
My evenings before childminding used to be spent sitting on the sofa watching the soaps with my hubby and having a nice chat about our day. Now my evenings are spent with me on the computer updating policies that don't need updated, surfing the Internet for new and interesting ideas for the kids, or simply looking on forums to see what everybody else is doing. My poor hubby doesn't get a look in now, sometimes I don't even notice he is there as ime too busy in my own little world of childminding and sometimes ime oblivious that he has just spoken to me as I have so much on my mind that I didn't hear him.
Sad isn't it but it's true. So how did I let myself get like this. I have no idea but ime paying for it now. I've had my moans and groans about this job and the children and have always said I can't wait until they leave and go to school but I have never ever felt so sad.
I applied for a job in my local hospital a couple of months ago when I was having an off day and to my surprise got an interview. 830 till 130 five days a week and I got offered the job. Omg was my reaction, how can I throw away this perfect opportunity to get my life back so I accepted the offer. I have given notice to my parents and start my new job on 1st August. I should be happy but I am Really struggling to come to terms with the fact I won't be seeing my kids anymore, the kids I've looked after for 3.5 years. I have never experienced anything like it in my life, it almost feels like ime grieving. It doesn't help that I have no children of my own and I spoilt them like my own. I walk round my house looking at all the lovely memories trying not to cry but I have to keep reminding myself why I am giving up. My relationship with my husband is far more important than any job and I miss what we had together. I know this is hard now but I am hoping in a couple of months time I will be able to look back and say I made the right decision. my life and head will be free of childminding and my husband will have his old wife back.
I have made some really lovely friends through this job and will be forever grateful for the help on this forum especially sarah nevilles work.
So thanks to you all especially Mrs hamco.
tracy xxx
For months now I have been thinking about calling it a day simply because I am obsessed with it and have let it rule my life. 3.5 years ago I started childmind, I was so excited and threw myself straight in doing my level 3 in 6 months, re-arranging my paperwork 101 times until I got it just how I wanted it, spending a fortune on furniture and toys until I got my toy room just how I wanted it but even now ime still obsessed with making it better even though it's perfect.
My evenings before childminding used to be spent sitting on the sofa watching the soaps with my hubby and having a nice chat about our day. Now my evenings are spent with me on the computer updating policies that don't need updated, surfing the Internet for new and interesting ideas for the kids, or simply looking on forums to see what everybody else is doing. My poor hubby doesn't get a look in now, sometimes I don't even notice he is there as ime too busy in my own little world of childminding and sometimes ime oblivious that he has just spoken to me as I have so much on my mind that I didn't hear him.
Sad isn't it but it's true. So how did I let myself get like this. I have no idea but ime paying for it now. I've had my moans and groans about this job and the children and have always said I can't wait until they leave and go to school but I have never ever felt so sad.
I applied for a job in my local hospital a couple of months ago when I was having an off day and to my surprise got an interview. 830 till 130 five days a week and I got offered the job. Omg was my reaction, how can I throw away this perfect opportunity to get my life back so I accepted the offer. I have given notice to my parents and start my new job on 1st August. I should be happy but I am Really struggling to come to terms with the fact I won't be seeing my kids anymore, the kids I've looked after for 3.5 years. I have never experienced anything like it in my life, it almost feels like ime grieving. It doesn't help that I have no children of my own and I spoilt them like my own. I walk round my house looking at all the lovely memories trying not to cry but I have to keep reminding myself why I am giving up. My relationship with my husband is far more important than any job and I miss what we had together. I know this is hard now but I am hoping in a couple of months time I will be able to look back and say I made the right decision. my life and head will be free of childminding and my husband will have his old wife back.
I have made some really lovely friends through this job and will be forever grateful for the help on this forum especially sarah nevilles work.
So thanks to you all especially Mrs hamco.
tracy xxx